Ever had those nights where you are studying the word and Abba breaks you down? Those nights where the Holy Spirit sends sharp conviction right into the depths of your heart and it tears you apart?
Yep. Happened to me.
What had I done? I hadn’t been standing firm, or holding FAST to the faith just as Paul repeatedly admonished Timothy to do. I was entertaining and therefore condoning false teachings and sin! Godless chatter about relationships, material wealth and prosperity, witnessing false manifestations of the Holy Spirit.. the list goes on.
I had surrounded myself with them when i’m supposed to come out from amongst them! How have I been so foolish as to take for granted and slowly dim the light that Abba had lit within me. God was serious when he inspired Peter to tell us to be SOBER and VIGILANT. Because the enemy does disguise himself as an angel of light.
It’s hard. Hard to leave behind certain fellowships, familiar doctrines, comfort zones, friends – old and new.. however the bitter truth is that I must carry my cross and follow Jesus.
I felt Abba’s righteous indignation, but at the same time I still felt His love.He rebuked me for the fellowship i’d been having with those who claim to be in the light, but really are in darkness.
2 Corinthians 6:14 Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness with lawlessness? And what communion has light with darkness?
I felt afraid of the change, wasn’t sure if I was ready to move and trust. In the middle of my despair I asked God for forgiveness and strength, He said to me “Walk with me. Noah and Enoch did. Now you do the same”