Isaiah 43:18-19 “Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert.
Yay! I’m so excited to finally be officially launching this! It’s been months of prayer, studying, hard work, tears, doubts, excitement, joy.. name it pls. Wow. God is truly faithful!
You wouldn’t believe it if I told you that the idea for this blog came to me over half a year ago, and that i’ve been working on this since October??
Well it’s true and it’s only fitting to share with you the background story as I officially launch this!
It’s a long one so sit tight 🙂
Let’s take ourselves back to 20th February 2016, this was the day of my Water Baptism. That day still holds a really special place in my heart because I believe after my Baptism the Spirit came ALIVE in me.
“After my Baptism the Spirit came alive in me..”
I was empowered and truly filled by Him. Now don’t get me wrong, I know I had the Holy Spirit living within me before, but afterwards the fire really started burning. I literally died to the world that day. I was crucified with Christ and I rose to new life in Christ. It was a public confession of my faith and the start of an amazingly intimate walk with the Lord.
How does this all tie in with the blog? Well, one of my new years resolutions for 2016 was to journal more consistently. I loved journaling but I wasn’t very committed to it, I had gotten lazy with it so I resolved to do it more frequently. Little did I know that God wanted to use that desire for His own glory.
In August 2016 during a time of prayer and journaling, I had a vision. I was instructed through Habakkuk 2:2-3 to write it down. So I wrote frantically, making sure not to forget one word. I was overwhelmed. LETS BE FRANK, when you get an idea bigger than you, you start to question yourself and doubt if it really came from God. How? When? Where? WHY? I asked God all these questions expecting an immediate answer, how naive of me. But deep down, beneath the worry, I knew that this blog was just a part of a greater move of God. I had a peace about it, but I wanted to delay it. I told myself, “yeah i’ll start a blog, when I graduate from Uni.. when i’ve got it all figured out..” Of course, God had other plans..
A few weeks later during fellowship, a woman shared a word of encouragement with me. She said that things were going to start moving very quickly in my life and in my walk with Christ. She continued on to say that I shouldn’t be afraid because God is in control and He will be strong for me.
“He will never put more on me than I can bear.”
She mentioned many other things and I was just amazed. It was BANG ON. I prayed about it because I needed reassurance that it truly was the Holy Spirit speaking through her. I got multiple confirmations and so I yielded and indeed things began to move quickly. God brought provision, clarity and purpose to the whole vision (Check out the About page for more info!) and also began to prepare my heart and mind. Blogging isn’t something I ever saw myself doing. I wasn’t very good at English in school and I really didn’t enjoy writing essays or poetry. This gradually started changing when I started writing for God. It excited me and gave me peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.
So you’ve had this blog since October.. WHY DIDN’T YOU MAKE IT PUBLIC?!? It was an intentional decision to keep it private. Of course I had to sort out all the ‘techie’ stuff, but really I was waiting on Abba’s “go ahead”. One thing I have learned is: when you move ahead of God, you will not get very far before you start coming back (it has happened to me so many times!). There were also some ‘heart issues’ that we were working on too, so I knew it was best to just wait on Him and His perfect timing.
The wait was also significant because I believe God wanted to teach me the importance of being faithful whilst only His eyes were looking. Would I do it with only His affirmation? Would I be a good, consistent steward of the resources He provided? Would I trust Him for inspiration on what to write? Would I rest in Him alone?
“Be faithful whilst only His eyes are looking..”
Looking back now, I really value the time I spent just leaning on God to teach me and lead me, because it’s helped me to really abide in Him. It has also moulded me into a more transparent and broken vessel which is what He desired of me. (Check out the other posts i’ve already released!)
I really don’t have it all planned out but I am God’s servant, so I’ll allow Him to use me however He wills. May you be blessed and may He get all the Glory!
Let’s get started shall we?